Author: 公子于歌 / Gong Zi Yu Ge
Translator: Kinky || https://kinkytranslations.com/
Chapter 156: You’re the White Moonlight in My Heart
Yan Yaoxuan saw Shen Jintai when he first came in. He was sitting in front of him, a row away. After the screening was over, he stood up and applauded with everyone else. He was so excited that his palms were red.
It was so fucking good! Shen Jintai’s face was too compelling on the big screen. Every subtle expression was extremely moving. He was truly a fan.
“Don’t your hands hurt?”
As the applause and drums were beating enthusiastically, the sentence suddenly floated over from next to him. Yan Yaoxuan turned his head and glanced at Shan Cheng, and found that among the group of crying audiences, only Shan Cheng looked dull and indifferent.
Is he serious?! How can he be like this for such a touching movie?!
This only motivated Yan Yaoxuan to clap more vigorously to make up for Shan Cheng’s share.
This was the first actor’s interview by the crew after the screening, so almost everyone attended, including screenwriter Song Chenchen. The host first introduced the director and screenwriter, then Shen Jintai. Shen Jintai bowed again under the applause, smiled, and said, “To be honest, when this film was first cut, Director Sun invited me to watch it. I refused. I wanted to sit with everyone and watch it be released together. At first, when Qingquan and I were sitting under the stage, my attention was on the reactions of the audience around me, but then I got hooked on the movie. When I was immersed in it, I suddenly heard Qingquan crying… Originally, I felt like I could hold it in, but hearing his cries, tears started rushing out.”
He smiled and looked at Bai Qingquan. Bai Qingquan blushed, smiled embarrassedly, took the microphone, and said, “This is the first time I have seen the film.”
His feelings were deeper and more complicated than Shen Jintai’s. The emotional outburst after the movie was over wasn’t only because he was moved by the movie itself, but because it made him reminisce about the time they spent filming it. He thought of the feelings he had invested in them while they were shooting and wasn’t able to get out of the act for a long time. This led to his low period, which resulted in his scandal.
After watching this movie, he knew that his acting career was promising again. He contributed his best performance since his debut with this movie. The big screen can’t deceive people. They could see all the passion and emotion that he had put in. For the first time, he experienced the charm of the big screen, and his heart was fully invigorated. He had never loved acting as much as in this moment.
After a short interview, everyone drove to the next city.
<When You’re Older> had officially entered their intensive publicity period.
During this period, Yan Qiuchi was busy with the affairs of the Yan group. He ate and lived in the office. Shen Jintai had asked for a few days off from the crew of <Welcome Rain on a Spring Night> so he could fly around the country to promote his movie.
The process was gradual, fermenting through word of mouth. To further promote the movie, the crew posted tidbits on the official blog. The tidbits were made with great care. At the beginning, it was completely cinematic, as if it were a trailer. Bai Qingquan suddenly rushed towards Shen Jintai and hugged him tightly. Then the staff entered the shot, and it was seen that it was a behind-the-scenes shot. In the tidbit, Bai Qingquan was hugging Shen Jintai tightly, in an emotional state, but not too intense, as he shed a few tears. Shen Jintai returned his embrace and patted him on the back, giving a faint, sad smile.
This tidbit was released to the circles, and it was hailed as the “last hug” by the Jingtai Meijing CP fans.
Shen Jintai now belonged to Yan Qiuchi, and in the future, Bai Qingquan would be with someone else as well, but at this moment, they only belonged to each other. This was Jintai Meijing’s last piece of sugar.
“I believe they really fell in love with each other when they were filming. Wuwuwu.”
“Zhou Jing and Li Xu, Luo Wensheng and Yu Nuo. Both the past and the present. Wuwuwu.”
Facts had proven that <When You’re Older> presale prediction was correct. On the first day, the box office closed at 50 million. It had made a strong breakthrough in the highly competitive time during Chinese New Year’s. The prediction for the total box office was raised to 1 billion.
“I, his mother, is crying with excitement!” The gold powders were celebrating Chinese New Year’s in advance.
“Everyone knows that actresses look at awards while actors look at the box office. My brother’s first movie was a hit, and there’s still his big blockbuster, <Pilot> hitting theaters later. The road to movies will definitely be smooth!”
“Yes, yes! I have been uneasy for the past two days, afraid that the reputation and the box office won’t be good. Now I can finally get a good night’s rest now that it can break 10*. This kind of achievement is unparalleled in my life!”
*Term for breaking 1 billion.
“Everyone keeps a low profile. Breaking 10 is just hope. It’s not too late to celebrate after breaking 10. I’m brother’s fan, but it may be too wishful thinking!”
“After filming <Welcome Rain on a Spring Night>, I don’t know if my brother will consider making another TV series. I am a big fan of <The East Palace is Coming> and I still hope that my brother can make another long TV series when he has time.”
“Does the one upstairs have any ambition? If he can do movies, what kind of broken TV series will he make? Doesn’t he smell good on the big screen!”
“I also don’t think it makes much sense to make another TV drama. It is difficult to surpass The East Palace in terms of ratings and topicality. It’s better to make a good movie and be a box office superstar!”
“I think my brother’s acting skills are also very good. We can look forward to awards for <When You’re Older>, right?”
“Movie Emperor! Movie Emperor!”
“Hahahahahaha, everyone is so happy today!”
How could they not be happy? Shen Jintai was too hot after his comeback. This wasn’t just a matter of luck. He carried it and deserved it. Looking at reviews for <When You’re Older> almost all of them gave him high praises.
“Touhua does not only have a face for the big screen but the figure as well. His body is so amazing. It’s not too meaty or too thin. He’s tall and beautiful, heroic and charming, can pass as either a man or woman!”
“What kind of luck does Touhua have? After his comeback, he starred in a phenomenon-level hit TV series. The salted fish* turned over and became popular. Now he’s making a movie that’s looking to surpass 1 billion at the box office. This luck is too good!”
*(咸鱼) Buzzword for someone who’s lazy and has no ambition.
“You may have forgotten that Touhua’s emotional counterattack is better than his career. Prince Yan has already fallen under him! Touhua is a winner in life, and I’m really proud to be his fan.”
“It’s not just Touhua’s performance, but Bai Qingquan’s was also amazing. He has held on to this kind of twin performance and did not lose to Shen Jintai in several of their rival scenes.”
“Speaking of luck, he’s also lucky that this movie is considered a success and he’s able to turn over.”
Wei Ge felt that Bai Qingquan was completely worth his luck. Due to being caught too deep in the act when filming <When You’re Older>, Bai Qingquan wasn’t able to get out of his feelings from the play. Later, when the Yan Family experienced their accident, he came out to record a few shows to support Shen Jintai. The first few days were extremely rough.
The most impressive thing was that when he was recording on a variety show, the guests and host kept secretly poking at his alt account and sexual orientation. It was done so subtly that people couldn’t tell whether it was to add more heat or if they were just trying to be funny and joke around. Bai Qingquan was full of laughter and supported them during the entire show, but when he went to the toilet, he sat in a stall by himself and cried miserably.
This was always like him. Since his debut, he has been bullied, and so he would hide and cry to himself. When Wei Ge went to find him, Bai Qingquan slammed the door open and came out. His face was already calm, and his eyes were slightly moist and flushed, but he was ready to go on to record the show again, full of smiles and cheers.
Despite his sexual orientation and alt account being exposed, Bai Qingquan was even more unable to be himself. It wasn’t that he was afraid of revealing to the world his true self; after all, his alt account was already exposed, and he had nothing to hide; he just felt too ashamed. He used to be able to just be himself when he was in front of Wei Ge and the others, but now he had become more reclusive.
Perhaps he wasn’t pretending either, as these kinds of major blows can drastically change people’s hearts.
Wei Ge felt sorry for him and hoped that he could return to his usual self, at least in private, and become the unscrupulous Bai Qingquan that they all knew.
Shen Jintai also found that Bai Qingquan had become a lot calmer. He felt that he was now truly walking the fairy path that his image used to be. He was quiet and gentle, like the bright light of a white moonlight.
Ironically, the outside world no longer believed him, calling him “hypocritical”, especially since he had basically betrayed the moonlight powder.
For several days, they went on roadshows everywhere, to the point of exhaustion. On the way back to Nancheng by plane, Shen Jintai patted Bai Qingquan and said, “Let’s talk.”
Bai Qingquan said, “You still have the energy to chat.”
Shen Jintai smiled and said, “I think a lot of your fans have returned recently.”
Bai Qingquan smiled and didn’t speak. After a while, he said, “Actually, my feelings for them are very complicated now, and I am also very confused…” He sighed faintly and said, “Fans love us as they see us, but as stars, it is impossible for us to reveal our true nature. Distance can produce beauty. What they fall in love with is not the real us. Sometimes I think this love is really fleeting. Today, they love me as if I’m their favorite in the world. If I provoke them tomorrow, that can instantly turn into hate. This love and hate are so strong that it makes me feel very insecure. I think it would be better to live in peace than deal with this.”
Shen Jintai thought what he said made sense. However, if someone hated, there was also someone who loved. Even if a bunch of people hated you, as long as a few really loved you, you could make it through. He felt that Bai Qingquan needed someone to love him so that he could change back into the little cutie of the past.
“Has anyone chased you recently?” He asked Bai Qingquan.
Speaking of this, Bai Qingquan’s eyes finally lit up.
“Don’t mention it. Since I was exposed, I haven’t looked at any of my private messages on Weibo. Everything is out there on my posts, and some people have sent some nasty pictures.”
As Bai Qingquan finished speaking, he opened the photo album and showed him one of the screenshots. A man directly posted a photo of his penis with the text: [18″. Three times a night is not a problem!]
Shen Jintai whispered, “Isn’t this fucking sexual harassment?”
But these are not surprising because he had also received messages like this. Besides that, he even received many pictures of girls begging to date him despite the fact that he’s a well-known gay man.
“I have tens of thousands of private messages on Weibo now, and I have never read them.”
Unfortunately, he didn’t know that among those private messages, there was one that was more than 2,000 words long. It came from the buzz-cut senior who had once pursued him. After knowing that he also liked men, he sent this private message that was neither courting nor loving. After waiting for him for so many years, he also knew that they would no longer be a possibility.
Before planning to completely move on and start over, he sent this private message to Bai Qingquan, as if to signify an end. Bai Qingquan was now a bright moon in the sky that he could only raise his head to watch from a distance. Even so, he was satisfied with this.
The author has something to say:
This is really white moonlight in my heart.
The chapter that was originally overjoyed became so sad! Xiao Bai, fly bravely and his senior will always follow!
Kinky Thoughts:
COMMON BAI QINGQUAN’S WHITE MOONLIGHT. YOUR BAOBEI IS SUFFERING. Step your pussy up and comfort him!!!
On a different note, don’t send unsolicited dick pics. Save that for Grindr.
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Kinky Translations 
Sending unsolicited d*ck pics is so awful. Only a step down from unsolicited d*ck show in person (sadly, I’ve experienced this personally once, and reported it to the police after. Don’t know if they caught the guy though). Consent and respecting boundaries are really gold.
From the sound of it, I guess Bai Qingquan won’t be getting together with his childhood chaser gong? That’s a bit sad, but I’m sure there’s someone out there that’s perfect for him and will be all that he’s waiting for and more. Really hope he gets some good luck and happiness too, after all that.
Thanks for the chapter!
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Sending the message, it means that the buzz cut senior not only knows who BQQ is (remember he previously said that he’d changed his name and style), remembers him regularly, and most likely has lingering feelings. The author even wrote “after waiting for him for so many years”! Now I wonder whether BQQ will somehow read this message, or try to find the senior in order to apologise, or they’ll meet by chance.
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