Author: 公子于歌 / Gong Zi Yu Ge
Translator: Kinky || https://kinkytranslations.com/
Chapter 123: See Your Heart
The crew experienced a sudden change in mood. One minute, they were crying from the scene they had witnessed just now; the next, seeing Shen Jintai looking at Yan Qiuchi, their blood was boiling with gossip. With the two of them being in the same spot, they couldn’t miss a single second of this!
Shen Jintai still looked like an old man. He put on his coat and left the set, accompanied by Xiao Tang and his team. When he passed by Yan Qiuchi, he nodded politely to him. He appeared to be an arrogant ice queen, which piqued everyone’s interest!
Shen Jintai’s heart was muddled. He was full of affection for Bai Qingquan, but when he saw Yan Qiuchi, he was immediately pulled out of the act. He felt guilty, like a thief, so he bowed to Yan Qiuchi without saying anything and hurried to the dressing room.
When they got there, he saw Bai Qingquan. There was no awkwardness between them as they sat in front of the mirror while the makeup artists removed their makeup.
The feeling of exhaustion suddenly filled his whole body. Shen Jintai glanced at Bai Qingquan from the corner of his eyes and saw his assistant lean in and whisper something into his ears. It was too faint, so he couldn’t hear what was said clearly. He just saw Bai Qingquan slightly squint and said, “Nn.”
He noticed that Bai Qingquan had a little blood scab on his lips. Shen Jintai closed his eyes and leaned back on the chair.
“Hello, Xiao Ai,” he called.
With a ding dong, Xiao Ai came online. “Dear~!”
“I want to ask you, what the hell is a man’s body fragrance?”
Xiao Ai smiled and said, “It’s the aroma of a man’s body.”
“Aroma?” Like the fragrant concubine*? Is this reasonable for a normal human being?!
*A figure in Chinese legend that supposedly known for her mysterious smell.
“Dear, you got it wrong. Of course, this kind of aroma is not as fragrant as perfume. Did you know that everyone’s body has its own unique smell? This smell is so faint that people who aren’t close to it won’t be able to sense it. It’s similar to a man’s musk. In short, it will smell good and may become addictive to the other party. Don’t worry, this doesn’t apply to outsiders, only to your beloved.”
“And that beloved… Are you talking about Yan Qiuchi?”
“I dare you to laugh wretchedly again!”
“Hee~ Hee~. Dear, it’s hard for Xiao to say. It may be Bai Yueguang or the male protagonist. It all depends on how you choose.”
“Is Bai Qingquan really in love with me?” Shen Jintai suddenly felt particularly guilty. If this had been a month earlier, he would have rejoiced, but now… “Please re-check his love value!”
“Okay, Xiao Ai will check it for you… Oh!”
Shen Jintai: …
“Oh~ The love value had suddenly dropped!”
Shen Jintai was relieved. Sure enough, he knew Bai Qingquan well. Bai Qingquan had always regarded him as a sister. How could he suddenly fall in love with him? It must be because he was too caught up in the act and hadn’t come out of it.
“What happens now? Are these rewards going to be taken back?” He inquired, excitedly, praying for a refund for that sensitivity reward. The upper body he could kind of get but fuck the lower body! With this kind of thing, let alone being a gong, it would be impossible for him to even be a queen*.
*Clarity: Queen as in referring to a shou but like gay slang of being a queen.
“I can’t return it,” Xiao Ai said. “In order to be worthy of the user’s contribution and to reassure the user, we have promised that once the reward is issued, it will not be withdrawn!”
“…Can I sue you for fraud?”
“Why?!” Xiao Ai asked excitedly.
Why don’t you have any compulsion in your heart?
“Isn’t the key point in whether a person is a gong or shou is all dependent psychologically? No matter how beautiful a straight man is, he will always be straight. You can’t just blame us because you’re ashamed to look directly at your attributes.”
Shen Jintai: “…”
“Do you think what Xiao Ai said is unreasonable?” Xiao Ai pressed. “Then, do you think it’s the body or the spirit that determines a person’s attributes?”
It’s supposed to be spirit, but…
“Xiao Ai is going offline now.”
“Are you angry?” What kind of service attitude is this?
“No, Xiao Ai just thinks that you forgot that Xiao Ai has insight into your heart. Now that you have considered being a queen, Xiao Ai can’t pretend not to know. Beep!”
Xiao Ai went offline.
Shen Jintai only felt his face turning red. He did think about being a queen, but he only considered it casually. Wasn’t it because he was forced into a corner by Yan Qiuchi at that time? If he wants to attack Yan Qiuchi, he must have the ability to do so.
He suddenly trembled, surprising the makeup artist, who was taking off his wig and glove. “What the matter?”
“Ears are just a bit itchy,” Shen Jintai said.
The makeup artist glanced down, smiled, and said, “Your ears are very red.”
It was faintly red which made it look good. Not only was he flushed, but he also felt unbearably itchy when he was touched by the makeup artist’s hand just now.
Shen Jintai felt his heart couldn’t stop. After the makeup was removed, he immediately went to the bathroom and locked himself inside. It took him a while to calm down before he finally plucked up the courage to touch his body.
Bai Qingquan opened his eyes and gently wiped the blood scab on his lips with a cotton ball dipped in water. When he heard the sound of running water coming from the bathroom, he glanced back and saw Shen Jintai coming out, completely flushed.
“President Yan has invited the crew to dinner again.” He said, “We’ve all been taking advantage of you.”
Shen Jintai didn’t say anything but simply sat back down on his chair.
Bai Qingquan turned his head and glanced at him. “What’s the matter with you?”
The tingling sensation was still flowing in his body. Shen Jintai responded with a “Nn” and turned to look at Bai Qingquan. He felt like saying goodbye to him, as he didn’t think he could be a 1 any longer.
Truthfully, he had long given up on attacking Bai Qingquan a long time ago, or rather, he had never seriously flirted with Bai Qingquan in the first place. His so-called strategy was to act well and let Bai Qingquan be impressed with it. Yet the strange thing was that Bai Qingquan’s favorability for him kept growing despite his popularity rising.
Bai Qingquan smiled, which disturbed the wound on his lips, causing him to slightly frown. That look was really beautiful.
“Let’s take a break tonight. Are you free? Let’s have a meal together.”
Shen Jintai said, “I’ll pass. I’m so tired. I just want to go back to the hotel and get a good night’s sleep.”
Before the two of them left, they went to Director Sun to watch the replay. When they were watching it, Bai Qingquan entered the act again as he leaned slightly on Shen Jintai’s shoulder. Shen Jintai gave a glance at Yan Qiuchi from the corner of his eyes. He shuddered at the way Yan Qiuchi was looking at him with suppressed hunger and thirst, as if wanting to kiss him.
Perhaps it was due to being infected by watching the replay, but the sad feeling he had seemed to reflect his acceptance of his destiny. When he transmigrated, he didn’t expect this would be his fate.
He really didn’t pretend to be a 1. From the beginning, he had liked Bai Qingquan and wanted to fall in love with such a little 0 beauty. Maybe his like for Bai Qingquan had never been regarded as “love” but he never really thought about being a 0 for Yan Qiuchi.
Seeing Yan Qiuchi fall for him seemed to move him. No, that wasn’t right; he was indeed moved. The mishap where Bai Qingquan suddenly fell in love with him made him clearly see his heart.
Xiao Ai was right. These rewards for making him more beautiful were not the foundational reason why he was considered a shou. It was possible that if he encountered a 0, he could be a 1, and when he encountered a 1, he could be a 0.
After watching the replay, he and Bai Qingquan stood up and listened to Director Sun blow a few rainbow farts.
Yan Qiuchi was still immersed in the play. The performance was amazing, and not only did Shen Jintai perform well, but Bai Qingquan also acted superbly. He was sincerely happy for the two of them. One was a popular artist from his company, and the other was his sweetheart. There was no feeling of jealousy, only admiration. He would always support Shen Jintai’s career unconditionally and hope that it would only get better with time.
“Today’s scene was exhausting. You two should have a good meal and go back and have a good rest so you’ll look radiant tomorrow.”
Tomorrow’s focus was on filming the intimacy scenes, which would adjust the oil in the honey.
“It’s been hard on you. You’re heartbroken today, but it’ll all be lovey-dovey tomorrow.” The assistant director laughed. After speaking, he remembered that Yan Qiuchi was next to him, and so he smiled awkwardly.
Bai Qingquan glanced at Yan Qiuchi with a faint smile on his face. He licked the blood scab on his lips and released his hand that had been resting on Shen Jintai. Shen Jintai was a person that his boss liked, and he didn’t really have feelings for him in that way. It was just because he’d been lonely for a long time. For the first time in his life, he was able to film a love drama with a man. He was so moved by this kind of life-and-death love that he empathized with Shen Jintai, similar to Yu Nuo’s love for Luo Wensheng.
He was also frustrated, feeling as if he was still too inexperienced. He put his hand in his pocket and turned to look at Shen Jintai, whose eyes were still red. It felt as if they were lovers who had been torn apart by bullies.
Sun Sihai was watching from the side in a delicate mood. He felt that without Yan Qiuchi, Shen Jintai and Bai Qingquan emotional scenes wouldn’t have been fake, but how could there be such a thing in life? Shen Jintai’s affection for Bai Qingquan was only in this movie. The affection and love that were captured on the scene weren’t brought over into reality.
While Shen Jintai was close to Bai Qingquan, that feeling couldn’t match the cold look in Yan Qiuchi’s eyes. As a director with a keen eye, he could see through all the hidden sexual tension hidden underneath those cold eyes. It was rumored that Yan Qiuchi didn’t love him, but he could tell that it was not just King Xiang’s dreams*.
*It refers to the idiom “King Xiang has dreams but the goddess has no heart” (神女有心，襄王无梦). It’s a story about King Xiang chasing Goddess Fu in his dreams, but she rejects his advances in order to be loyal to the deceased King and maintain her propriety. || In context, he’s saying that at first, it looks like King Xiang’s dreams (as in Shen Jintai (King Xiang) is chasing after Goddess Fu (Yan Qiuchi), who rebukes him), but seeing as how Yan Qiuchi is acting, that doesn’t seem to be the case.
“Jintai.” Shen Jintai turned his head and saw Yan Qiuchi walking over.
“Do you want to grab a drink?” Shen Jintai asked suddenly.
Yan Qiuchi was stunned for a second.
“Suddenly, I feel like having a drink.” Shen Jintai said, leaving Xiao Tang, who was nearby, flabbergasted.
Shen Jintai had removed his old-age makeup. His lips, hair, and figure were even more impacted due to the fierce contrast between the two.
Bai Qingquan was sitting in the car. When the car started, he rested his head on the window and watched Shen Jintai get into Yan Qiuchi’s car. He sighed, looked back at Wei Ge, and said, “I also want a sweet love like that.”
His eyes turned red as he curled his mouth. Wei Ge was speechless. Seeing Bai Qingquan like this, knowing that he had been filming too much recently, he comforted him very seriously for the first time and said, “There, there. There will always be someone who’s waiting to find you.”
“…Don’t suddenly comfort me. I’m not used to it.”
Wei Ge: “…”
The car started and slowly drove off as it passed by a young man with a buzz cut who was riding his electric bike and pulling a cart filled with goods behind him.
The author has something to say:
It’s probably the difference between friendship and love.
Is this Bai Qingquan’s senpai from his junior high days?! You deserve all the love in the world, Bai Qingquan!